2009 is on the way out.
I feel good about the new one. I'm looking forward to being two semesters closer to graduating from college. I plan on setting goals for my health and fitness. I made it 51 weeks without sugary desserts this year. I decided to go ahead and binge this last week so that with 2010 I can start out with a clean slate. After 6 days of eating lots of crap, gaining 5 pounds and starting to feel lousy and disorganized, I am READY to cleanse and get back to my old healthy self.
I'm proud of my academic accomplishments this year. Passing College Algebra and Statistics rank at the top of the list since I really believed I couldn't do that. A very close second would be learning to do flip turns, because that required overcoming fear.
This year I want to address my fear of public speaking and my inability to convey my thoughts adequately. I sound like a dumbass when I try to explain things that I understand perfectly myself. If I'm going to get into grad school I think I need to improve in that area.
I want to do a better job of parenting Reagan. I've become lazy and allow her to spend too much time vegging in front of the tv. The ongoing quest to improve executive function continues. Someday we will find the magic pill and all will be well, but until that happens too many missed appointments and too many wasted hours. I have to figure something out on my own.
It's five days before Christmas and I have not stepped foot into a store. That will change tomorrow however. I'll be trying to get it all done in the next two days. Not much money this year, we'll see how much fun we can have scrimping.
For myself - I'm really looking forward to next semester. I made A's in all my classes this time including statistics so I'm pretty pumped. I have 12 hours coming up. Wish I could afford to take 15 because without math to drain the life out of me I think it would be fine. I'm getting a jump on the reading already.
Health wise, I still have my asthma bothering me that flared up when I got the flu thing. It is just a little cough here and there unless I work out. Then I have more wheezing and some coughing til it clears out. It's not debilitating by any means but still an indication that I'm too acidic. I plan on doing a cleanse at some point after Christmas, but I have to get my molten chocolate cake first. Then maybe a week long cleanse and after that I am going to play around with total sugar abstinence for a month at a time to see if I can knock out that asthma. It just puts a damper on how hard I can run. I did spin class on Friday and was ok but started wheezing about fifteen minutes in to the point that I had to go easy for the next twenty.
Insomnia has also been a pain due to hormonal crap that I just can't get around. I can't complain though. So many women have it much worse than I do.
Our Christmas tree is REALLY beautiful this year. It's a fake tree that we've had for 7 or 8 years now. It's had most of its pre-lit bulbs go out and we've had to replace them with whole new strings. Last year it tilted to one side and I could not straighten it, and it drove my ocd brain CRAZY! This year, for some reason I was able to tip it so that it stayed just right. We thought Chewy's angel topper had finally bitten the dust but I was able to revive her. She is perched perfectly on top. And for some reason, all the ornaments are placed pretty much exactly where they need to be so I don't have the constant compulsion to move them around. We have added new ornaments each year and we have a zillion at least. Many reflect the lights which just makes it so beautiful. I love Christmas because the house looks so nice. Seeing the tree lit up and all my snowmen everywhere just makes me happy! We are mega broke this year so presents will not be expensive but they will be fun. I'm actually kind of into being creative about it. This is the first year Gramma Laverne didn't send a box of presents home with Dick and Reagan at Thanksgiving. Sad, but I'm thinking I'll do a psuedo-Gramma gift for everyone.
On another note, I made a kick ass meatloaf tonite. Unfortunately its not alkaline but I ate it anyway. It was yummy though.
I added a fourth class to my schedule next semester. It's the first time that I will actually get 12 credit hours for my four classes. Every other semester I have had a math class that did not count. This semester my stat class counted but I only took nine hours. It will be interesting to see how much easier 12 hours is when one of those classes isn't algebra! I spent literally hours a day getting through those classes. I really need to keep reminding myself what an accomplishment that was.
I am very excited about next semester now because, first of all, it will be my LAST semester at TCC. I have Earth Science which makes up my last core credits that I need. Also, I am taking Abnormal Child Psychology which is a very high interest subject for me. I have enjoyed Behavior Principles and I have the second part of that course. I don't have any idea what to expect from "Survey of Behavior Analysis Literature.
Right now I'm looking forward to the break, to working out, swimming and getting the house in order.
It's not even Christmas yet but I have already been thinking about New Years Resolutions. I struggle so much with negativity I think I am going to try to be less negative next year. But I'm going to start tonite. I want to mention some things I'm grateful for, that light me up instead of dragging me down.
I love that Reagan falls asleep each night listening to Charlotte Church. I love hearing it from her room,so pretty. ( Even if she did start doing it because I confiscated her ipod)
I like that Dick has become Mr Mother Hen and takes Reagan to karate several times a week. He is so into it, comes home and brags to me about how well she did throwing people around and kicking them. And I love that Chewy is doing such amazing things for herself, that she is happy and working toward goals she is excited about. And I'm pretty pleased that I got an A in statistics and I'm exempt from my Behavior Principles final. Just one final to go and then the break. Really, now, in light of all those things how can I not be positive and happy?
It is too freaking cold out now. I don't like it. The snow this morning was lovely for all of the two hours it lasted. If it's going to be cold I would like it to snow more. But here in Texas we have lovely warm weather most of the year and a couple months of wintry hell with very little if any snow. I REALLY don't like it!
On a happy note, Psychology prof told us we don't have to write the last reflection paper. Hallelujah!
I ran on the treadmill tonite because it was just COLD outside and I didn't feel like being out there in the cold dark. I ran for 31 minutes, walked 5. Went 3.3 miles. I ran on five most of the time but went up to 6 for three minutes, back to 5, to 7 for two minutes, back to 5, then up to 8 for one minute. Then I finished running to 3.1 miles and walked to cool down. It was a good workout. It's easier to pick up the pace on the treadmill than outside. I have been wanting to get my 5k time down and to do so I really need to do speedwork. Its hard though, so I don't do it enough.
I really need to get in the pool too. But that might have to wait til the semester is over.
My stat final is NEXT MONDAY- holy cow. This semester flew by.
I have to say I'm not real excited about next semesters classes. Earth science - bleh. I need that last science class and if I want to take it at TCC I need to take it before my last year at UNT. Also still taking prerequisite classes for Behavior Analysis so I am limited in what I can take there. So next semester will be kind of boring...
Big paper is finished! That is such a relief. Now if I can get through my last stats test and final this semester will be history. I guess it'll be history regardless! I am ready for the break. I've been a little discombobulated lately. Not ready for Christmas, getting over being sick which was weird. The sick week and Thanksgiving means I haven't seen J in two + weeks, so I have to get myself back in that groove. I should work with him more over the break but...I don't want to. Maybe I will want to once I get back there again. It isn't that I don't want to work. I just wish I could work on a program where I don't have to be in charge. Where I could just be a therapist(since that's the pay scale I'm on).
Then there is my workout schedule. I am still having some issues with asthma which has me bummed. If I eat right I don't have it, but the Thanksgiving meal (sans pie), aggravated it and then I went and had some of the leftovers last night AND movie popcorn. So today, coughing. errggh.
So I haven't been swimming in about three weeks. Jingle Bell run is in a week and I'm excited because Chewy is going to run with me! Hooray! It will be her first 5K!
New Years resolutions are starting to swim around my head.
I will be finished with my sugar free year in about a month. It was successful, however it wasn't totally sugar free because I had stuff that contained a small amount of sugar and I had maple syrup and CRANBERRY SAUCE for Tgiving. Organic so no hfcs but still.
So now I am thinking about next year doing some total sugar avoidance. Maybe a month at a time. It can only make life better!
I am planning to do a cleanse after Christmas, though certainly not looking forward to it!
Saw The Blind Side yesterday. Very awesome movie. Then we turned on TV and the Ravens were playing so we got to see the actual Michael Oher playing. I loved the movie but I have to think about how much Hollywoodization that it contained and that spoiled it a little. But not too much. Evidently, the real Michael Oher is unhappy about the way they portrayed his childhood and that they made him look idiotic when he started playing football. He said he played since eighth grade and knew what he was doing. I did think it a bit odd that the real life guy was just college age when this came out. I thought if it were me I would feel strange being portrayed that way. But it was a fantastic movie anyway, and will be added to my favorites list!
I just took my stat test. As always, I really have no idea how I did except that I felt like I knew what I was doing on all but one question. So fingers crossed hoping I did at least a B.
Now I can turn my full attention to that #$%^&*&$ interview paper. As soon as I finish procrastinating, that is. I am home alone for Thanksgiving, by choice. It is always sad to wave goodbye to my family as they drive off to Missouri. But once they are gone I kind of bask in the treasured alone time knowing that I can totally do what I have to or want to do for a few days. AND, that I'm not freezing my butt off. Unfortunately this year it is study for stat and write paper. Cleaning will have to wait for Christmas break.
Chewy and I are putting off the actual Thanksgiving celebration til Saturday because she has to work. It works out great for me because I can concentrate on school stuff and hopefully just about finish my paper before the fun stuff, which will make the fun stuff more fun!